Lesson Learned

How can you love and hate me


Make and Break me,





Bring me up fast


Let me down and leave my heart in the past,





Alternative motive was fairly discreet


My feelings were real you heard my heart speak,





Through ups and downs it never failed


We were unbreakable until your betrayal,





Thought there was no better love


Guess i didnt see the signs sent from above,





All the while being true


Apologies to my self for giving my all to you,





Pulled me in with pure manipulation


Tried to stay strong but im running outta patience,





The time is now i have to leave


Loving my self, moving on for me,





No longer trapped, a lost prisoner of love


Escaped the devils wrath as push came to shove.





No more pain, i'd let it burn but now its your turn

Losing my love should be a lesson learned.

Life's Battle

I sit and write all night about the endless pain

Troubles from my past affect my today

Although i had escaped the chains

Here comes a mountain along with rain

Everyday it's something else

But im just a girl that no one can help

These feelings also my strength, lie deeply within

Life is my battle, im fighting to live

But It's Almost that time, gonna give it a shot

There's no way that i'll miss,

Gotta give it all i've got :)

Struggle Between Love & Hate

I wasnt strong enough to talk about it, but i cant walk around with this on my chest... It hurts me to know that you couldnt see how you were blessed.
Told me i was the best and wouldnt end up like the rest, you had faith in me... but faith in you was hard to see.
Why'd you have to leave me i thought we were in love? God sent you an angel, a gift from up above...
All the nights i cried, i use to be so confused, It was like tug of war... i really didnt wanna lose. Understanding is the only thing i needed-when you left me all alone, i felt so defeated...
As i got a little older i figured out why, said you'd come back forever and i believed all your lies...
It was about that time for me to open up my eyes, After 3rd grade there were no more tears to hide...
In ways Your absence only made me strong, I chose to forgive you and moved right on...
It wasnt my fault so i stopped blaming me, it was a life of addiction that made you so weak... Now i have better days cause i locked the pain away, and every time you visit i cant want you to stay.
Its kinda hurting me to feel this way-i couldnt hold fake it any longer, i had alot to say...
Even Though you werent there, to make memories for us to share...
I still love the better part in you, and i'll always be your daughter no matter what you do...
I hope you're really tryin, to let go of a life filled with sin...
I see the devil dyin, I know that god will win...
Its just a Competition... You're Competiting Within.